I feel really irritated about something stupid, so I have to stop. -__- I got to stop thinking about it because it's fucking retarded, and I swear to God, I have to stop cussing! Hmmm, well my Friday was allright, I think I just went home with Deepak and watched TV and stuff and then I went over to Fresh Choice for a while to eat with the guys, then I went to Kumon with Dunstan. It felt so weird being there, because it reminds me of my little kid years when I used to run around Westlake, and throw away my Kumon homework in the trashbins outside and stuff. Haha. I miss it and talking to all the teachers there like Esther and Stephanie and stuff, and giving them a hard time. I was suprised that they all remembered me, but not my name just my face. -__- I guess it just shows how annoying I was, because that's all they talked about when they talked about me. Haha, I was such a bother at Kumon when I was a kid, hella disruptive and stuff and I still am but I'm working on it! I sat outside for a while to go home and just reminisced about my days as a kid at Kumon and how much it really helped me in school when it came to Math. It just makes me really miss being a kid with no worries and makes me in a way scared of growing up. I got to stop being scared of every challenge or obstacle that comes my way because I am the biggest whimp on earth and I'm always scared of obstacles and challenges and taking risks but it's like you never know until you try. -__- Well that was my Friday, the next morning, I woke up at like 6:40 and went to YMCA around 7 and just shot around and tried working on my game but I still feel disappointed in how I'm such an indecisive person. I mean not just when it comes to basketball, but just my life in general and how I always cause problems to other people around me when I'm so fucking stupid and am being indecisive and I really want to change that, but I can't, it's like, "Okay, I'm sticking with this," or "I'm choosing this," but in the end I always end up changing my mind and never end up making it. I also gotta work on thinking way too much, I guess that's a factor on me when it comes to being indecisive, but I think way too much about all these little things that aren't even a big deal, and I realize that even though I may mess around with people a lot, and they can be really cruel sometimes, I'm such a hippocrit and am offended easily. I gotta stop being a pussy and cussing so much. I just went off-topic, I am supposed to talk about my day. Well after playing basketball, I worked out for about an hour or a little more, then I went home and watched my little brother's game. They won with a tie-breaking lay-up by Wai Min! He's too raw, that kid is going to be a star in high school, and I'll be like what the fuck, if he doesn't make Varsity his freshmen year, same with Richard's brother. Uhmm, I got a haircut after that and killed some time at home and Kevin Siao came over and we just tried killing some more time and I attempted a game of Call of Duty, but stopped after i died like 20 times and killed only one person. I am horrible at video games too! I went to RCH after to watch my little sister's scrimage, then went to Sunset Rec from 6-9 and then went to aunt's house to eat then went home. Today was an allright day, but I just got to stop thinking too much and just DO it. I hope I didn't bomb Mr. Gould's quiz, that'll break my heart if I do. =( Oh well, at least I get to play AAU tommorrow! Yay.

Machu Picchu

Dude, Spanish is gay. Mrs. Dubose is hella fucking weird, I swear to god. Kris is a fucking stupid fucking fat cunt face. Heidi Ng is Chinese and if you say her name hella fast it sounds like your saying hiding. I am fucking hungry and I want to eat my motherfucking lunch already! I had two gayass quizzes already. -__- Yesterday was allright, all I did was go school, then go home, then go to the Y with Derick. There is this one rawass fucking guy there whose name is Clint or something and he's so raw. I was curious about him and found out that he used to play professinal basketball for Germany back when he was about 20, but he's like 38 or something now. I look up to that guy. -__- He's so fucking raw I felt so good when he told, "Way to play kid." I was like OMG! Dude, he has like retarded Steve Nash eyes though, but it's okay because he be getting dimes. Mrs. Dubose got the wrinkliest skin on earth I swear to god, but I'd still lick it for money. LOL. I hope I get to go Fresh Choice today with Deepak and shit after school and maybe go to the Y later tonight and see Mr. Vargas's partner. Haha. Oh shit! I CALLED COACH CRIS YESTERDAY! He was like, "Sup brotha!" And then I was like, "Sup Coach." And then we just kept talking and I was talking to him on the phone like I was a retard or some shit. I miss his fatass even though he sucks at coaching. Dude, the fucking gym schedule for the Y was fucked up and I had to do nothing for another hour but just stand around. -__-

Simple living

Watching Gandhi, and thinking about religion and my religious beliefs I think that I want to turn my life more into a simple living type of life with not too many wants, but I know that's impossible. I guess I do this because this reminds me about Buddhism and it's beliefs which is similar to Hinduism in a way I guess, but I'm not too sure. I guess all along, I have been trying to attain it in small ways and I guess I just gotta keep taking these small steps. Gandhi has really inspired me to a sense that I guess the way I think lately is different, it's like realization. Well school today was allright, nothing interesting really stands out in my head. I just don't want to deal with anything right now and I'm having all these stupid like problems with I guess priorities and all of that mumbo jumbo. I was really tired today though sleeping later than what I usually sleep at because of YMCA. All of these problems I have are really stupid, and whenever I don't wanna deal with it, I just wanna chill at the Y with all those old naked guys in the showers with their saggy balls, and take a shower with them. Haha. I really love going to the Y, and it's making me want to drive so I can drive myself there, but yet I'm not really serious about driving yet because I'm so fortunate enough to have my mom drive me everywhere, even if it's a hassle for me. -__- After I came home today, I just went Gould's study session, ate a little at home, and knocked out on the sofa, and then walked into my bed and knocked out a little longer. I woke up and took a shower and watched Click, and it just really changed my mood from pissed off and annoyed to like calm, and feeling bad for resenting Naomi. -__- I feel like I do things a lot but I don't know what I want out of doing it, or the purpose of it, and I am feeling like I'm in such a confused state. -__- It's "Quit Life Status Pt. 2" Haha. I wish I woke up earlier and went to the Y today, but I think I'm going tommorrow, so I gotta get all my homework done afterschool. =) I hope one day I'll see Mr. Gould there because I found out the other day he has membership there.

Feelin good with Derick!

I am feeling pretty good right now, like Derick. -__- Wow, that's weird right. Haha, well today was a good day because I ended it right but anyways, school was allright. It's strange how I can't remember much about what happened in school today because I usually remember basically everything because my life is so dull but today it was fun! Nothing really interesting happened in school today, I guess same old but I just won't go into detail today. Uhmm, after school I went straight home and went to the Hillside Club House with Danielle to get E.C. for Mr. Vargas's English class. I think going there was a really fun and great way for me to do my homework in a chill and cozy environment. Mr. Vargas is a pretty cool guy and him and some other SF State students were there to tutor us or help us with HW if we needed it. There weren't too many people there, but it seems like it's their daily routine to spend their Tuesdays afterschool over there. I think I'm going to add that to my daily Tuesday now too. Stayed there from about 4-6 and just did my homework there with Danielle and got help on my essay from Mr. Vargas. After, I went home and killed some time until Derick got to my house and then we went to YMCA together around 7:30ishh. We first shot around and played a couple of 2 on 2 pick-up games and then I played a full court game and just shot around some more to kill time. I felt really good today and I just wish the night wouldn't end because I just wanted to keep on jackin up shots and work on my game. I've been feeling really determined lately to have success when Dragons comes back up and that's all I've been thinking about. I met Mr. Vargas's "partner" today and when she first walked into the clubhouse, I said to myself that I really recognize her face and finally realized when she told us her name that it was Vargas's partner and that she works at the Y because Vargas told us, and I said no wonder she'd looked so familiar all the time, because I always saw her around at the Y this summer and all of that. She helped me and Danielle with our physics homework and she was pretty cool and nice. Playing basketball at the Y today was great and I just feel so good right now. Haha. I'm going to try to go to the Y more often. =) Oh yea, and I still need to call Naomi. =)

Fuck school.

Dude, I am fucking tired today. It was hard waking up this morning, even though I slept early this whole break and woke up pretty early I guess. I just didn't feel like marching my ass to school today, but it doesn't matter because I get rides up the street every morning anyways because I'm fucking lazy. -__- Dude, I am getting so fucking sick of school. And I hate starting off my mornings with Physics. Mr. Gould is whack and he can't teach and even if I somehow have an A-, I'm not satisfied with it, because I'm not learning anything. Today was such a wake-up call for me. I've been slacking my grades bad lately, and I am getting this constant feeling that I don't want to care about what I get on my report card but yet I still do. I guess it's parental influence. -__- It's like giving up is a lot harder than trying. That sounds hard to understand but it just seems like that's appropiate to say right now. Dude, I really do not want to deal with school right now, and it's getting harder now and I hate Spanish because I do not understand it at all, and I hate English because I'm slacking, even though my Spanish and English teachers are pretty cool. Then lunch came around the corner and I forgot my fork to eat my rice with. -__- I failed my English Quiz on TKAM, even though it was easy as fuck. Fucking stupidass Nick, that's what I get for rushing just so I can help out with IFD because I got too much food on my mind like Coach Cris. Hahaha, I love him though. Dude, I'm tired as fuck and I just want to knock out, but I have to find one more fucking quote for English HW, and then go to Physics tutoring from 7:30 to 9. At least I got to end my school day watching the rest of Gandhi, and eating doughnuts in World History. I went straight home after school to eat and do my homework because I want to change my act. But I am currently failing it by being on the computer. -__- Monday's are such a hard day to get through for me, I have to deal with school, then do my homework, then when I got nothing left, I have to go Physics Tutoring. -__- <--- I always make that face, it makes me feel hella Chinese. Haha. Dude, today was such a gloomyass fuckin day man, I just wish President's Week was forever. YMCA everyday of the fucking week. At least I get to go tommorrow if I finish my homework quickly. Damn, my life feels hella boring lately and I need to get a life. I hate gloomy days, their mood-ruiners. Dude, going back to Spanish today and realizing I suck at Spanish, and failing an English Quiz really woke me up today. I am hella scared now and trippin way too much about my future and all that gay stuff, and scared of like failure and like not reaching the expectations of my parents. I fucking feel hella Asian and shit right now, it's such a gayass feeling man. I miss Fernando man, it would be go to class, fuck with Dyogi for two periods, haha then go fuck around with some other teacher, and still get like straight A's because it was easy as fuck, but now I guess my work ethic, really shows by the grade I'm getting in English and Spanish right now. -__- Damn, that was a lot of stuff I just said. I need a reality check, I should go to Francis's house and go to the sauna and look at some old, saggy balls and ask the dude if they're real.

Hmmm, it's still funny and hard to comprehend that I am STILL blogging. Haha, I guess this could help me with my English skills. It just made me open up a new tab and look up the word comprehend just to see if I spelled it right. Haha. I fucking had a badass start to my day. I was woken up at 6 in the fucking morning because my brother set his alarm at 6 and it was ringing for like 5 straight minutes, so I got out of my bed and he was in my parents room sleeping because he always wanders there at night. I grab him hella hard and say, "TURN OFF YOUR ALARM, I CAN'T FUCKING SLEEP." Hahahahahahaha. So he turns it off, then I go take a whizz in my parent's bathroom and go back to sleep. I said I would wake up at 6:30, and make a trip to the Y, but I ended up not doing it again. -__- That's like the second time I said I would go, but ended up flaking. I hope I don't keep that up. Haha. Well I woke up again and ate fried rice for breakfast. It was good. Uhmm, after I helped around the house I guess and helped my mom make a Burm dessert to bring to the potluck party at Robby's house. I got there, dropped off the dessert, and realized I left my jersey at home because we were taking team photos at his house to turn in for tournaments or something, so my mom had to drive me back home and get my jerseys and go back to Robby's. Not too many people are there when I rearrive. Uhmm I eat some good stuff, and watch the PHX vs BOS game. I think we go downstairs after and play Super Smash Bros on Wii and then go upstairs to take team pictures. It took forever and we kept messing around. Haha. I remember this one time we were watching like rugby or something and I go, "Kenya on 3," because I think Kenya was playing or something and then we all start laughing and have to take another one. And it also kept getting delayed because of people touching people, even though I liked it. Hahahahahaha. That sounded homo. Uhmm, we messed around a little more then I got a ride home from Coach Gordan and ran down the street to Richard Tai's grandma's house to get the keys to my house but I end up getting to the door with the door open not realizing my dad was still home and I burst in through the door and tell my dad, "I GOTTA TAKE A SHIT!" I sit my ass on the toilet and my dad leaves, then when I better after letting my load out I return the keys. I feel bad because I didn't go Algebra 2 tutoring because I wanted to go to the Y, so I told him I couldn't go because I'm going to get ready for school tommorrow. -__- I get picked up by Derick and go to the Y and play a couple of games. It's hella funny how there's always this one guy that always gets made fun of at the Y. Haha. It was hella funny because they all kept bagging on him and we just kept laughing. Uhmm, I went home after it closed at 8 and ate and messed around with my little sister. Today would've been great if it didn't rain. -__- I hate the rain.

Dude, I'm a third group at blogging and I just wasted my Saturday by waking up at 1. I said I was going to go to the Y, but I decided to sleep in for once. I didn't really do anything today but look at photos in the photo album at home and watch my brother play Call of Duty. Some dude fixed our roof, it was funny because my dad tried to pay him more, but he wouldn't accept it, so my dad started saying some shit like, "I very happy" over and over again. It was hella funny. Yesterday was kind of fucking fun. I woke up yesterday at like 7:30, to pick some people up in Stockton with my dad and sister, and bring them back home. We got back around 12. It was a long car ride and I did nothing but sleep and listen to my iPod. After we got back and I ate lunch, I went to the Y with Richard and my brother. That one retarded Chinese guy was at the Y again. LOL. It was funny because as soon as he walked in, I just started laughing. LOL. I remember he got into a fight or arguement or some shit with one of the YMCA counselers or some shit last summer just because they had to use half the gym to help little kids play basketball and he started arguing with them. It was like what the fuck? LMFAO. So then I shot around for a good amount of time before I worked out for a little and got picked up by my mom and went Subway. I was craving it for a while and finally got it. LOL. I watched a little bit of the Rockets and Hornets game and then went to Francis's house with Francis, Richard, Dunstan, Derick, and Eric. It was hella funny and stupid. Haha. First we went hot tub for a little, then went into the pool and first started off playing chicken, it felt kinda gay but it was funny. Then we played tag, but then it eventually switched over to Marco Polo. While we were playing, 3 black girls joined us. It was hella funny. I was it right and I yelled Marco, and I didn't know I was near a wall right and the black girl was basically cornered. So when she yelled Polo, I jumped and I smacked her hella hard across the face. And I was like "Oh shit!" Hahahahahaha. I felt hella bad and said sorry and that it was an accident and stuff. It was hella funny whenever Francis was it on Marco Polo, or my brother because we'd be yelling some stuff like "*A*" or "Egg Roll." Oh yea, when I went to pee before I got into the hot tub, I passed by the sauna and saw somebody in there and I thought it was one of my friends, so after I walked past it, I walked backwards, and took another glance and it was old guy naked in the sauna with wrinkly ass balls. LOL. And I was like "Oh shit" because it wasn't anybody I knew. Haha, that was kind of random. I remember in the hot tub, we were talking about how I sucked at blogging. -__- I gotta work on that.

Wow, I am NOW on my second post! Haha. Hmm, well woke up today and ate at T.C.P. at Pacific Super and my dad gave the lady a wrinkled 20 and the lady asked for another 20 dollar bill becaues the one my dad gave her was wrinkled and so my dad threw a little tantrum and told her money is money and shit. I thought it was kind of funny and stupid because there's a lot of wrinkled money going around and we don't choose if we get crisp or wrinkled dollars. But I got home ate and went Gellert with the siblings. I was trying to get my little sister to play but she doesn't seem too interested in basketball and I guess I try kinda hard to get her into it, but I guess it's bad because I don't know if I'm forcing her into something she doesn't enjoy. When we were shooting around, the ball went in and bounced on Kasey's head and she started to cry, I felt bad but luckily Eric bought her ice cream. Haha. We walked home after Gellert and then later that evening I went to the movies with Derick, Francis, Richard, and Adrian and we watched Push. It was a REALLY GOOD movie. And that girl in the movie had me mesmerized! Well, after the movie Rich, Adrian and me walked over to Adrian's house and chilled there until Richard got picked up, and I got dropped off home. Yea, that's my day. LOL. I feel hella weird when I blog, because I'm not used to writing about it and it feels hella corny and shit. And I just realized how sleepy I feel from waking up so damn early going to the Y. -__- I really don't wanna go back to school, and I just can't believe that my break ended that quickly, and I didn't really do much but go to the Y. -__- I'm craving some Subway.

YMCA!

Wow this is my first post on my first blog. How interesting. I was talking to Ariel on AIM earlier and randomly got to the subject about my day and I asked myself, why am I randomly telling you about my day? And then I said, I'm getting a blog! Well today I woke up hella early this morning, at 5:20 to get dropped off at the YMCA on my mom's way to work. I picked Adrian up and got dropped off at the corner and took a short walk in the dark across the street from the Y. Played basketball with Adrian for a while, and my friend at the Y came in around 7 until 8 and went to school because S.I. has school today! Aha! Uhmm, played until 8ishh and while we were playing, it was so funny how there was this old guy in the gym, who was dancing. Me and Adrian couldn't stop laughing. It was so funny, that's so mean of me to say but I'm a mean guy. Haha. We hit the weight room until about 9:45 and went stonestown to eat because I didn't eat yet and I had a sandwich at the Great Steak, it was good. Haha. We went back around 11:30 and Adrian left around 12:30. Then I was all by myself at the Y shooting around until about 3:30 until my dad picked me up. I took a lot of shots today and it felt pretty productive. I guess today was a spiritual day for me and i just didn't want to stop shooting around because, things like Westmoor Basketball, and Dragons came to my mind. And I thought about that D-Wade commercial where I think it goes, "Wade's belief are stronger than your doubt." Well when I was shooting around and shooting my free-throws that was all I thought about and it made me really wanna have a good basketball season whether it's high school or Dragons. I kept thinking about Asian League and how I kept thinking that there's probably somebody out there like me shooting around working on their game and it just made me wanna practice harder, even if I was by myself. Strange huh? I'm usually a lazyass dude when I'm by myself, but I guess today was different. Haha. My dad picked me up and then drove me home and was talking to my grandma. He talked about how when his grandma died, his dad had a dream that his grandma told him something the night she died and I found it kind of interesting and suprinsingly not scary because I'm a big baby. Haha. Uhmm I came home and to my suprise found my brother's friends just chilling I guess I can say. One of my brother's friends was a "brotha" and my brother always tells me about how he's really funny and so he goes, "Aye man I want some strawberries" and so I tell him about how there's that Mexican lady near M.P.Brown who we probably have seen a couple of times selling strawberries and I told him to go there, and he was like "Forreal?" Hahahaha. I think he then gets up and a mini orange falls out of his pocket and it's hella random too. Wow, that was kind of pointless to talk about but it was funny how he carries an orange around. LOL. Uhm, after Francis and them tried planning on going to the hot tub at his house, but it eventually failed so I just stayed at home like a couch potato and watched basketball with my little sister. Go Lakers! Wow, what a day.